Addictions Can Be Fun

I have recently come to the conclusion I am addicted to several things, not all of which are good for me, and really 'addiction' has such negative connotations anyway because you should never be addicted to anything. Even stuff that is generally considered healthy because let's face it, too much of a good thing can sometimes be bad too. So I thought for a long time about this and have decided my addictions fall into two categories: material/physical (these have to go together) and emotional.
Material/Physical:
1. shopping
2. alcohol (sort of)
3. sex (only when I have a boyfriend, I am not a total nympho, thank you very much)

Emotional
1. sadness
2. drama (again, sort of)

Okay, the shopping is pretty self-explanatory, I love to shop and probably will go broke long before I ever even graduate which, as most of you know, is happening in about six months. While I may in fact go bankrupt, at least I will look good doing so. That is, until they take away all my pretty clothes and shoes and purses and the loads of new underwear I bought at Victoria's Secret Semi-Annual Sale. God I love Victoria's Secret. This isn't necessarily unhealthy, just not really a good idea.

Alcohol - Okay, I have touched on this one before. I am not addicted in the classical sense where I must have a drink with me at all times. I am addicted in terms of, once I go out to the bars I can not stop drinking until I am hammered or my money is gone, which usually happen about the same time. This one is very unhealthy, of which I am quite aware. However, it is very difficult to stop, so I should probably stay away from the bars for a while. We all know this probably will not happen though.

Sex - I am not really going to get into this one with ya'll. I think it is just safe to say that of all my addictions, this one is the healthiest because of the frequency and the fact that it is great exercise when you're being lazy like me and you don't want to go running.

Sadness - For some reason, I have brief times where I just bawl my eyes out the whole day. There's no real reason in particular, and a good cry is actually healthy for you as long as it does not go on for days and days at a time. Sometimes there is just a point where even the most social of butterflies (like me) needs to be alone and just have a good long cry. I always feel better afterward and am, strangely enough, usually happier for it. I think some of that has to do with the fact that very few people aside from my supremely close friends ever see me cry (unless I have just gotten into an argument with Teetz on "O" Street, then everyone sees me cry). I have to let it out at some point and I would rather people not see me cry because crying is weak and weak people do not survive.

Drama - Again, not in the classical sense. I think more than drama, this is just the fact that I can be pretty brutally honest with people sometimes (usually accompanied by alcohol) and I am not about to hold anything back. Unfortunately, some people don't like this and they get upset, thus drama is created. I should have phrased this better, because I do not actually like drama in my life, though it is kind of funny when it is happening with other people. Especially if it is something I said to them when I think they need some honesty in their lives.

I don't think my addictions are collectively all that healthy and I need to work on them. Now is probably the time to do it, since I know I am not the best person I can be. I do a lot of stupid things and while I don't regret anything I have ever done, I don't ever want to, either. I have a feeling one or more of these might eventually lead to me regretting something, so I need to start changing some things before I get myself into trouble.

Days til Gavin and Howie: 9!!!!!!